I have to confess, I'm a huge alcoholic and always have been, I've been sober in increments of 5 years and one other time for ten years. I recently reflected on how much I have been/was consuming. I'm completely through this time. I just can't do it anymore. I'll be honest - after this last time, I'm lucky to even be here right now.
I love you guys and promise to each of you, this is the new beginning to my life and I'm completely done with drinking.
Thanks for the ear. If anyone else is struggling. Please feel free to chime in if you wish.
Originally Posted by Otter:
I was going to watch "In Bruges" on Netflix today but decided I'm going to run over a pitbull while doing pushups on a motorcycle I'm steering with my tounge while doubling the speed limit. :-) Thank You Hog!
Fuck yeah. That's how we roll up in this bitch. [Reply]
That is good news. I come from a family of alcoholics. In fact, it's a divine right in our family and the alcoholism goes back generations. There's no easy way out of this one except to do what you are doing: stopping and reaching out for support.
The horrible thing about coping mechanisms (in this case drinking) is they work (of a fashion) or we wouldn't use them. But they never quite help us go beyond survival.
You are taking a step beyond survival, into grappling with living and that's the good news.
